I didn’t do everything perfectly, but I gave it my all.
Worked overtime. Skipped the getaways. Brought my lunch every day for thirty years. Whenever my kids needed anything—money for camp, new sports gear, help with tuition—I made it happen. No grand gestures. No thanks needed. I just quietly did what I had to do.
I used to joke that my retirement savings were tied up in their futures.
And for a while, I thought it had all been worth it. They grew up. Found jobs. Sent birthday messages—mostly digital now, but I appreciated them just the same. We even had a family group chat once. It fizzled out when one of them got a new phone and never added me back.
It’s been five weeks since I got the diagnosis.
Stage IV. It’s everywhere. Time’s short. The doctor said I should begin getting things in order. So I did the simplest thing first—I reached out.
I called all three of my children. Left calm, straightforward voicemails. No theatrics—just: “Call me when you can. It’s important.” I followed up with texts. Even sent emails.
Nothing.
No replies. No blue check marks. No “sorry, I’ve been swamped.” Not even a heart emoji.
I’ve caught myself staring at my phone like a teenager with a crush. I even dusted off the old landline, thinking maybe they’d remember that number. Still nothing.
When the hospice nurse asked if there was anyone she should contact, I told her, “They’re probably just busy with work.” She smiled gently, the kind of smile that’s full of understanding—and pity.
Now I sit alone in this quiet house—the one I paid off so they’d never have to worry—flipping through photo albums I thought they’d one day treasure.
And I can’t help but wonder:
When they finally hear the news, will they say, “We didn’t know”?
Or will they say, “I meant to call… just didn’t get around to it”?
A few days later, I went out. I couldn’t take being surrounded by the echoes of their childhood anymore—the scratched floors from their toy cars, the handprints still faint on the walls. I walked to a coffee shop downtown. Just needed air.
As I sat there, sipping tea, a young woman nearby caught my eye. She looked vaguely familiar. When she glanced up, recognition flickered.
“Mrs. Delaney?” she asked gently, rising to her feet.
It took a second, but then I placed her—Elena. She was the daughter of a former neighbor, and she used to play with my youngest, Mia. They were inseparable once.
“Elena!” I said, surprised and genuinely happy. “My goodness, look at you!”
We sat and talked for a while—about life, change, and how childhood friendships fade but still linger in memory. Then she asked me a question I hadn’t expected:
“How are your kids doing? Do you see them often?”
My throat tightened. I paused before saying, “They’re… busy. But they’re doing fine.”
She nodded, not pushing. “Life moves fast,” she said. “People forget what’s important.”
That kindness, so sincere, stung. Was it really that easy to forget the person who sacrificed so much for you?
That night, unable to sleep, I found myself watching old home videos. Birthdays. Backyard games. Science fairs. They weren’t grand occasions, but they were filled with joy. Laughter. Love. Watching those clips reminded me of why I did it all—and made the silence now feel even louder.
By morning, my sadness had hardened into resolve. If they wouldn’t come to me, maybe it was time I went to them.
Two days later, I took a bus to Mia’s city. She lived the closest, though emotionally she’d felt miles away. Her last message had come around the holidays—six months ago.
Standing outside her building, I buzzed her number with a shaking hand.
“Hello?” she said, distracted.
“It’s Mom,” I replied. “I just… wanted to see you.”
A pause. Then: “Oh. Uh, hold on.”
She opened the door minutes later in sweatpants, hair in a messy bun. Surprised, but not upset.
“Mom! What are you doing here?”
“I needed to see you,” I said softly. “Is that okay?”
Her apartment was small and cluttered, filled with art and plants. We sat in silence for a moment. Then I said, “You haven’t called in a while.”
Her face fell. “I know, I’m sorry. Work’s been insane. Rent’s going up. I joined an improv class…”
She kept talking, but I could hear it in her voice—life had swallowed her whole. There was no room left for me.
“And your brothers? Do you talk to them?”
She shook her head. “Not really. We’re all so busy.”
That’s when the dam inside me gave way. Not in a loud or dramatic way—but with a quiet collapse. The tears came before I could stop them.
“Mom?” she asked, startled. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m dying,” I said, my voice breaking. “And none of you even noticed.”
Her reaction was instant. She grabbed my hands and begged me to explain. So I did. I told her about the diagnosis, the calls no one returned, the loneliness. We cried. Together. Finally.
Before I left, I said, “Promise me something. Don’t let life distract you from what matters.”
“I promise,” she said through tears.
When I got home, Liam had texted: “Can we talk?”
Then Sam: “Are you okay?”
And for the first time in weeks, something shifted. A flicker of hope.
Over the next few weeks, they came. With stories. With regrets. With laughter. We cried again—but we also smiled. They brought the old warmth back, one visit at a time.
In the end, it wasn’t the grand apologies or fixed timelines that mattered. It was the effort. The presence. The reconnection.
Because life, I’ve learned, is stitched together by small kindnesses and late but sincere returns.
And love—imperfect, delayed, messy love—is still love.